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[01·16·10. 19:05] |
Making the most mundane of daily tasks into a monumental episodes.
...marijuana always helps. this is the staging area for my lunch. had a craving for a burger, so i went against my sedentary inclinations and headed to vons for materials.
our fridge isnt very well stocked as u can see. really, i just liked the lighting.
finished product. my culinary creations are pretty damn baroque (holyhotmess, if u will) since i tend to include as much as i can find in the fridge. this ones got spicy mustard, bacon, blue cheese crumbs, sliced red onions, dill, arugula, and sun-dried tomatoes. accompanied by dried mango chips and, of course, an apple. (ive learned well from childhood proverbs)
this is where most of my life takes place, including mealtimes. major internetunnel vision; i am a droid, and im ok with that.
i thought id be suffering from post-traumatic recession stress disorder by this point, but no my consumer fetish in insatiable. today tho, was an excellent shopping day :D
and as always, lots and lots of _ _ _ _
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| resolutionize |
[01·3·10. 19:50] |
happy new year everyone!
while sitting around on new year's day at mcdonald's (classy new year's brunch, naturally), someone brought up the topic of resolutions. as much as it is a pure self-serving ritual, it has the dual effect of also becoming self-effacing; a victim of its own devolution as an act of sounding out weightless words. i have usually refrained from outlining any specific resolution. not because i think myself above it, instead coz i do not want to set myself up for a disappointing retrospective on any given year...fall victim to my own laziness and then dwell on my failure. naturally, i have made mental memos--drawn by an instinctual hope for self-preservation.
this year tho, the response that suddenly sprung into my head was: no new years resolution. i put the perfect in imperfection. my friends lol'd and i lol'd. in a moment of self-reflection it became less of a product of facetious verbal vomit and more tied to the realization that im hitting a good mark in my life. an evolution of my mindset, if you will.
now, ive always really enjoyed new years. prime party holiday aspect aside, its always been the purveyor of collective emotional investment. apart from certain holidays--such as veterans' & independence days, it's one of few holidays that hasn't strayed fundamentally in the mind: You always get an opportunity to start over--closure for one year, aperture into the next. for once though, i didnt see myself as needing a clean slate, but i framed my resolution with the understanding that i am a continuous work in progress.
now i leave u with a picture of me & my doppelganger (@ a nye party). actually, were each others' doppelgangers. lol
love her sfm
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